Oh, wow! I forgot I had this thing. I read back on some of this stuff and it makes me miss high school in some weird way. A LOT has happened since my last entry. Tristin had a baby. She had a little girl named Riley. This is seriously one of the cutest babies I have ever seen. I don't realy get to talk to Tristin so much anymore. I feel really bad. It seems like I have no time for anything. All I ever do is work and go to school. When I'm not doing either of those, I'm too tired to do anything else. I should MAKE time though because I miss her. I NEVER talk to Natalie anymore. A bunch of drama went down last winter and I realized how much she needs to get her own life and what a bitch she can be. That ex-boyfriend Jake, he's supposedly engaged to someone but I really don't think that will last, not only because Jake hates having commitments but because he is WAY too young and she's 17 or 18 or something like that. Jay and I have been dating since November. He is a god. I don't know how he does it but he manages to put up with my family on top of putting up with me. Nic is coming home for Christmas and I have no idea how Jay is going to react to that. Nic is bringing his new girlfriend so that should make it a little better. I can't believe he has been in Germany since last February. I miss my confidant. Well, that's it in a nutshell, I'll try to keep up with this thing from now on I guess. Bye

                                         Audrey

      So I think Tristin is a little mad at me. She says she isn't but I think she is. We fight over Jay like fat kids in a candy store fighting over the last candy bar. We always have. Anyway, on to the reason. . . Last night I went and picked up Jay then went to Adam's birthday party. Well he needed some cough syrup because he's got a cold. So, I take him back to his house and we start watching this movie. Then he starts kissing me. That was all dandy with me except for the fact that I've liked him for a really long time. I don't know what to do, should I just act the same as I always did or what. At one point he stopped and asked what I was thinking and I just wanted to yell "Why are you doing this?" We've always joked around about the subject but I really never expected him to do anything. Why did I let it happen? I'm setting myself up for disappointment.

              Audrey

    I had a very crazy weekend last weekend. Especially at Jay's party. If you were there you know what I'm talking about. That's really the only thing that's happened lately. Oh, BJ's friend Jake is really cute. He has the most gorgeous eyes. lol. I'm such a sucker for pretty blue eyes. It's a weakness. If all is friends are that cute then I need to hang out with him more often. So, my wife's mom got her almost exactly the same thing I did for her birthday. Tristin and Ian are driving me up the wall again. All they do is fight! One of them needs to just leave town for a week so they can have apart time or something. At least they have each other to fight with. I actually exchanged whole sentences with my ex yesterday. Maybe he won't hate me forever. Rissa posted in her journal that she told Jake that she could never be with him because she still has feelings for Matt. I don't know how I feel about that. I kind of think it's funny because I think he really thought they would hook up. Then again, I feel a little bad for him for the same reason. So I kind of like this guy in one of my classes but he seems a little unattainable. He had a girl screw him over and now he is a little scared of relationships. Tristin, I'm sure, knows of whom I'm talking about. Well I'm gonna go so bye.

                                 Audrey

    Words to think about: "Suga how'd you get so fine?"

Ever miss the little things... the calls in the middle of the night when he says, "I can't sleep"? So you talk to him until he says he's tired and is going to sleep now? Then the little fights you get into? I do. Man, I really lost this one. Oh well.

I went to see that new movie 'Cabin Fever' last night. It was disgusting. I seriously wanted to puke when I left the theatre. Then I was trying to eat my lunch today and the people I was sitting with kept taking about 'skin flaking off'. I was sick to my stomach.

Tomorrow is my wife's birthday and I really need to get her a card... still. I got her this really cute present. She is in love with 'I Love Lucy' so I found this wallet with 'I Love Lucy' on it. She'll be happy. I hope she doesn't happen to read this before I give it to her. That wouldn't be cool. She's driving me up the wall right now. She wants her birthday to go really well. I keep telling her it will be great but she keeps trying to control what's going to happen. I wish she would just let it go because I know Ian has it under control. Well I need to run some errands for tomorrow then go to work so I'm out.

              Audrey

    I had never heard of live journals until my friend told me about them. So for my first entry I guess I'll just tell whoever happens upon this, about me. 

    I'm 17 and go to Collinsville High School. It's not all that wonderful and those older people who talk about high school being the best years of their life must not remember them. My best friend is Tristin. If ever refer to my "wife", it's her. Her boyfriend is Ian. They are so cute. I need a boyfriend like him. He just puts up with her bitchiness. My boyfriend, well, ex-boyfriend, Jake and I broke up about a week ago. I was too controlling and I know it. What are you gonna do? He's a sweetie and I really wanted to be friends afterwards but my insecurities were triggered and I really made him mad. I think today was the first time we've made eye contact since we broke up. What really sucks though, is that he's still cool around my little sister and Tristin. It only sucks because in those situations he tends to ignore me (which I can't blame him for) and I feel like this tiny, little, invisible person. -Anyway, I'm a senior and my little sister is a freshmen. So, she tags along everywhere, but that's okay because she's pretty cool. There's my friend Natalie. We call each other "girlfriend". We get funny, interesting looks in the hallway....What else is there? Oh, if you've met me before, I was probaly mean to you but not on purpose. I always exaggerate and people always take me seriously. People always seem to misunderstand the tone in which I mean the things I say. Does that make sense? Oh, well. I guess that's all I really have to say today so, I'm out.

                      Audrey